Haiz.. today, i wish to write a journal entry about how i feel right now..

Actually, now i can say tat i'm feeling quite sad.. [my mood swings again.. haiz..] i was thinking abt how my life goes on, does it goes on smoothly? i can tell u actually tat my life doesn't so as smoothly as wat u may think.. life doesn't come easy for mi.. i'm not like some of u who are those happy-go-lucky type of ppl, like got no problems at all like tat, everyday lives very happily like tat.. Of course I have my own personal problems, can be related to anything..

For now, i will like to tok abt my friends.. Yes, anyone can be my friend, but not everyone can be my close friends/best buddies. To me, so far only 2 of them can fit into this catagory(best buddies), and i supposed u should noe who are the 2.. i noe them for quite a long time le.. one is 4 yrs since sec 1 and the other one is 3 yrs since sec 2.. i can say tat i regretted not being together with them when i was in sec 1 or 2.. it's only up to now(this year, 2004) that i started to be together with them, know them more better and now i treated these 2 as my few best buddies tat i have ever met.. both of them treat mi very well, and through them, i learn quite a lot of things from them that i haven even encountered it in my life, and therefore realize that i should also change my character so as to become a better person, juz like the 2 of them.. I just feel that i ought to learn a lot from them, and i will continue to do that.. such kind of friendship is hard to get for mi, and i must cherish it a lot..
Now comes for my close friends.. actually for close friends, I do also have a few of them, lucas, thiam hee, paul, jian cheng, hong yao, qing long, henry, weiyi are some of the few ones.. 3 of them i know them since primary sch (greenridge pri).. i shall not tok abt this, but if u wanna noe more abt it, ask mi personally(phone or face-to-face) cos if i'm going to carry on toking abt this, it will have no end..

If u wan to noe more about my personal problem can chat wif mi over the phone (perfer night time, after 10pm, can chat till latest 4:30am) den i will slowly tell u my problems if u r sincere enough to ask and also to chat.. I shall not tok any further for now cos it will flood my blog one de if write too long.. [eg. is the one i write about the chalet 2004 one, the entry on Oct 16, that will be the longest tat i've ever write]