Seriously, i feel that i have changed myself quite a lot this year, especially after getting to know zs and zw more better & to be with them most of the time (towards end of 2004).. I get to learn lots of new things through this bunch of best buddies that i have not learned throughout my teenage/secondary school years.. They are the ones who are able to make me change to a more better & mature teenager.. But 1 thing i regret is, to not knowing them eariler(2001~2003, Sec 1 ~ Sec 3) , but now that i started to know/understand them more better doesn't mean that it's too late for mi, I still have a lot of time to be with them often, even till old age also can.. N level result is coming very soon, and i do hope that we all can go up to sec 5 together, to study, play, to do things together, and i do believe that "true friendship will never always ends.."

For the past 3~4 years i always feel that i'm not a good person with good characters.. Regarding my parents (especially my mum), i always make them worry about mi & not trusting me too much, even up to now.. The recently queensway thing is one very good example.. Although I'm not as good as my sister, but I just have the feeling of my parents not trusting me to go out with my friends(zs, zw, yx) to queensway shopping centre to buy some sports stuff.. cos
1. they just pian pian (insist of) want to pei (accompany) me over there even though i keep on saying dun need..
2. they seem not to trust me saying that my friends already gone there for at least a few times & going to the same few shops to buy sports stuffs (bball shorts, shoes, etc..) & keep on asking me to go to all the shops and compare the prices & worst of all, calling me to ask me which shop was i in at that moment of time and come and find mi when my friends were around..
3. first thing a few days b4 going to queensway i already tell my parents that they dun need to accompany mi personally over there but in the end, ... ... (u all should know wat happened in the end)
For this queensway thing, my mum even say that i dun have "parents' heart" (父母心), cos b4 going out of queensway, i called my dad and say that i will be going home with my friends but they just ask mi to go back and find them near the information counter.. the reason why i wan to do this is b'cos i really feel very "fan" (irritating, annoying) and dun wish to be with them at that point of time..

I think i just going to stop here for now..