Haiz.. juz tok abt new year i alreadi feel like crying.. Sobx..

Haiz.. I still dun understand why my parents, particulally my mother, is still like tat.. Now is stil cny day 5 and my mother dun let mi go my friends' hse.. I dun understand why if yesterday nite i was allowed to go to Bee San's house for BBQ, why today i wasn't allowed to go to Zhen Sheng's house?? To be frank, actually my dad allowed mi to go one, but my mother la!! keep on telling my dad tat he like tat will cause me to become worst.. If later my mother they all wants to go to watever ppl's house, i sure won't go one.. Very simple reason!, if my mother dun allow mi to go to Zhen Sheng's house, why should i follow them to their watever house?!? And even if i really lan lan follow them, i also won't feel happy abt it, and this only cause my mood to swing once again! So far actually on CNY i haven mood swing before, and this will be my very first and hope also the last time i actually become like tat.. My main purpose is actually NOT to go to my friends' house and take ang bao, but is actually to have fun, to enjoy myself there, juz like yesterday nite at Bee San's house.. My mother keep on saying tat i dun feel any stress for O Level this year, say i everytime slack one, and hence dun allow mi to go to Zhen Sheng's house and instead ask mi to go do my homework!! Where in the hell i got the mood to do my homework or do any shit study or revision when my mother actually dun allow mi to go to his house?!?

Haiz.. last yr's christmas eve nite like tat, now CNY oso wan to like tat.. Really dun understand y.. It seems tat calling Miss Michelle Hsien down to tok to my parents, particulally my mother, is NOT enough.. In the end, although the situation has improved juz a little bit, but overall it was still somehow juz like before.. I really dun wish to go and trouble another teacher(particulally either Mdm Chong or Mrs Goh, my form & co-form teacher this yr) juz like Miss Hsien last yr.. Haiz.. I was thinking whether is this really my FATE to be like tat or wad lo.. Haiz.. really feel like crying rite now but juz because i'm a guy and not a gal, i should try to control my feelings by trying not to cry out with tears.. Meybe if i juz write inside my online blog, my feelings will be at least better a bit, but i dun think i still have the mood to go and do my homework, even as to copy the TYS answers(chemistry)..

Haiz.. dun feeling like saying anything else rite now, cos i dun really noe wat else can i actually say abt this.. Wat i can only say this phrase rite now is "History Always Repeats Itself"...