Thursday, June 02, 2005
Ha|z.. stressed-up, frustrated, ...
I wish to talk about 1 matter which i dun wish to say it out at first, but i really have to.. The matter goes this way: Yesterday nitez, Weiyi (my god-bro) come to my house to copy some of his CD.. okie.. this is not the matter.. The matter is when he ask mi to help him give present to Darren (my class) and somemore say is I give one.. Okie.. This one still never mind.. What i mind the most is when he wants to buy an very expensive gift (Over $50) and ask me to give him. Let me ask all the readers a question. If u were mi, will u do that as to help someone to give to another present, somemore is making use of u and give such a expensive gift? Yes, I may not be the one who's paying for the gift, but after i give Darren the present, what i fear is when he keep on asking me questions like "Wah.. Buy such a expensive gift ar.. You got so much money ar?" and suspecting is not i give one like "Izzit someone ask u to give the gift to me(the 'me' refers to Darren)?" or whatsoever lo.. In my whole life, even my best friends i've not buy such an expensive gift for him, so Darren's mind might be thinking about ... ... ... (this one i dunno exactly, but most probably it'll be those negatively ones) Haiz.. At that time i was like very reluctant to agree to help him one de.. Den he keep on forcing me to help him to do things that it's impossible for mi to do de.. What for still forcing me to do things that i dun really wish to? And when i ask him to find someone else to help him, he said he onli wan mi to do so, no matter what.. and in a few days time, he's going to ask me out to Sim Lim Square to accompany him go see the expensive gift.. My mind was in a mess.. Haiz.. If i really can't help him, how am i going to tell him le? Haiz.. He told me that he treat his god-bro better den his friends and put the prioriy as the highest among the all, but seriously speaking, i treat my best and the very good buddies from my level more than him do, and my priority, same thing, also put my best and very good buddies higher den him cos for a normal person, he/she still put his family the top priorlty den follow by anything else.. Seriously speaking, i dunno as to whether to end this god-bro relationship with him or still continues on.. I'm still thinking over through.. Haiz.. Forget it.. As the chinese saying "走一步,看一步" which means let see what happen as the day goes by.. I'm not going to continue talking about this any further.. It makes me more stress-up, frustrated, tired, and sad..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 4:32 PM |