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Saturday, June 25, 2005
Haiz.. really feeling very ...
Haiz.. Today i dun really wish to talk much as my mood's really very down.. Just finish the chalet this morning (For 2D1N) with Miss Michelle Hsien with some prefects.. For the past 2 days in chalet, we enjoy ourselves there with her, got play play, got talk talk, got walk walk, got eat eat, got drink drink.. Haiz.. We will be seeing her for the last time in Singapore and of course in Zhenghua le.. After that, she will be in overseas for her further studies for 18 months le.. If she's going further for her PHD Degree, she will be staying there for about 4 to 5 years more.. But even if she comes back to Singapore after her 18 months of studies in Melbourne, Australia, she told us that she will not come back to teaching, for what she told us everything about her experiences, problems that she faced, and how to overcome her problems, etc.. On the 2nd day morning which is today (25/6/2005), she gave us a last talk (somehow like debriefing), thank us for ... ... ... (long story) , in the end, she and some of us here just feel like dropping tears/crying.. When i was listening, i was already somehow controlling my tears, and after her last talk, she came to me, and we hugged each other, by then, i was crying very very badly.. Not only me, she also hugged some of us here.. Den we left the chalet.. Haiz.. It was indeed a unforgettable moment to remember.. She also asked all of us here to write her autograph (not the pri sch tat type, is essay type de..).. I write about 3 pages that long for her.. Haiz.. All these years, she has helped us a lot in different ways.. Even my personal problems, i will never ever forget about it, on Dec 2004.. Really wish to thank her a million.. I bet no other teachers can be better than her, seriously..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:59 PM Saturday, June 04, 2005
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Haiz.. These few days i've been getting very stressed-up and it was not only 2 days ago when my god-brother kept on saying sorry to me and he claimed that it's his fault.. Anyway, this problem has been solved. Because of these, these few days, i'm also getting more and more fed-up about SMRT Buses Ltd which they dun promised what they told me in their replies to my e-mail. I was so fed-up until i'm being too rush inside the forum, and i think this has to come to a stop cos if this kind of 'being rushed' attitude continues on, this SGBuses forum will not have peace.. I should just sit down, calm myself down, reflect back on myself on what my mind is thinking, and not use the forum as a place for meet to voice out my unhappiness about this thing.. As for now, i just wish to make a sincerely apologise to all my forumnites who's very unhappy about what i've posted and in future, i will know how to control my mood and temper well.. Hope you all will accept my apology.. Peace..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 6:25 AM Thursday, June 02, 2005
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++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:58 PM
31/5/2005's Outing To Town..
This day was the most happy day in my whole life cos i 1st time go to town with my bunch of good buddies all know each other for 5 yrs le since sec 1, although now we all in different class but all now 5N sitting for O Levels Exam.. ;) Let me tell u all about that day bahz.. This outing got me, bernard, wei kang, darren ho, and sebastian going.. First, we meet each other at the bus stop waiting for svc 190 one along Bt Panjang Rd (except bernard cos he meet us straight at Far East Plaza.. That was around 12+ in the noon bahz.. After that we take svc 190 bus (TIB872H) to far East Plaza the bus stop to meet up with bernard.. Den we went to Far East Plaza to look for the LOTR sword that darren wants (that sword i onli noe very rare, but dunno wat exactly it's and later go walk around the shops b4 makan @ Sakura Family Restaurant.. wei kang(wk)and bernard go by the ear piercing or dunno watever sort of that thing, and wah, saw wk's ear (think right side bahz..) the holes very big alreadi sia.. and for makan, mi and darren were having Oyster Omelette ($8, share b/w both of us), wk, sebas, bernard all having noodles.. After all the makan, we go hunt for ql, and we go all the way to The Hereen seh.. Hahaz.. that was fun, but i think we all go disturb he and *ahem *ahem den he was quite unhappy lo.. so we all leave and dun disturb them.. Den, we continued our jalan jalan up to Plaza Singapura when we stopped by @ the MacDonald to buy a cup of Coca-Cola drink, and we all drank it. After that, at first we all decided to take the MRT all the way from Dobby Ghaut station to Raffles Place Int station, but when we take the escalator down, we heard the announcement that MRT kenna breakdown and have to wait for approx 15 mins, and we all decided to walk there instead. Den, we come up and walk through Fort Canning Park, and we even pass thru the ROM (Registry Of Marriage), we talk cock and joke around as we walked.. When we finally reached Raffles Link @ Raffles Place MRT station(underground), we go to the shop that got sell the sword thing.. Same shop as the Far East Plaza but different outlet.. This time got the sword that he wants but $300+ lehz.. so he muz start to save $$$ le.. After that, we walked around the Raffles Link for a while, and decided to take MRT back home, but see so many people rushing into towards the gate entry that side, so we came up and went to some of the shopping malls nearby and jalan jalan.. Den we walked all the way back to Singapore River, and from there, i started to take out my handphone (SE K700i) and take photos of the nice scenery and view along Singapore River. When we were at there, we can see the Esplanade (aka durian head) and we continued to go to the Esplanade and take photos again passing through The Fullerton Hotel.. We all first went to The Merlion that side. When we were about to reach there, i tell the rest that i went to take some photo shots first. And after that, we walk all the way to the Esplanade and we take a group photo of it.. Lastly, we take a svc 75 bus back home.. And that's all.. As the saying goes, "All Good Things Must Come To An End". But i hope that after our Os, we can have a similiar kind of outing again ;)
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:45 PM
Ha|z.. stressed-up, frustrated, ...
I wish to talk about 1 matter which i dun wish to say it out at first, but i really have to.. The matter goes this way: Yesterday nitez, Weiyi (my god-bro) come to my house to copy some of his CD.. okie.. this is not the matter.. The matter is when he ask mi to help him give present to Darren (my class) and somemore say is I give one.. Okie.. This one still never mind.. What i mind the most is when he wants to buy an very expensive gift (Over $50) and ask me to give him. Let me ask all the readers a question. If u were mi, will u do that as to help someone to give to another present, somemore is making use of u and give such a expensive gift? Yes, I may not be the one who's paying for the gift, but after i give Darren the present, what i fear is when he keep on asking me questions like "Wah.. Buy such a expensive gift ar.. You got so much money ar?" and suspecting is not i give one like "Izzit someone ask u to give the gift to me(the 'me' refers to Darren)?" or whatsoever lo.. In my whole life, even my best friends i've not buy such an expensive gift for him, so Darren's mind might be thinking about ... ... ... (this one i dunno exactly, but most probably it'll be those negatively ones) Haiz.. At that time i was like very reluctant to agree to help him one de.. Den he keep on forcing me to help him to do things that it's impossible for mi to do de.. What for still forcing me to do things that i dun really wish to? And when i ask him to find someone else to help him, he said he onli wan mi to do so, no matter what.. and in a few days time, he's going to ask me out to Sim Lim Square to accompany him go see the expensive gift.. My mind was in a mess.. Haiz.. If i really can't help him, how am i going to tell him le? Haiz.. He told me that he treat his god-bro better den his friends and put the prioriy as the highest among the all, but seriously speaking, i treat my best and the very good buddies from my level more than him do, and my priority, same thing, also put my best and very good buddies higher den him cos for a normal person, he/she still put his family the top priorlty den follow by anything else.. Seriously speaking, i dunno as to whether to end this god-bro relationship with him or still continues on.. I'm still thinking over through.. Haiz.. Forget it.. As the chinese saying "走一步，看一步" which means let see what happen as the day goes by.. I'm not going to continue talking about this any further.. It makes me more stress-up, frustrated, tired, and sad..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 4:32 PM Saturday, May 07, 2005
History always repeats itself.. Ha|z..
Haz... These few days.. History repeats itself again.. Let mi tell u the situation now.. For the past 2 to 3 months, mi always go to my friend's house and study at nite for every weekdays and afternoon and nite for e very weekends.. den now my mother say exam must stay at home study ALONE.. How can? Maybe for some people like my sister can.. but for mi, i prefer to study along with my friends, cos by studying with my friends, if we got difficulties in anything, we can always ask each other.. What makes mi very fed-up is that when my mother say that "ONLY you will do such things" where "such things" refers to mi going to my friend's house and study.. How can she just concluded that ONLY mi will do such things where other people also do such things? and guess what when i say the previous sentence to her? she just say "dun compare with other people can? just compare with your sister will do." What exactly i thinking is if she hates me to compare with other people, why she ALWAYS without FAIL go and compare mi with my sister? Why? Let mi tell you all this, although mi and Sharon are brothers and sisters, but our character is exactly different, and our preference is ALWAYS different. How can my mother just compare like tat le? Haiz.. Whatsmore, she keeps on saying about me always follow my friends, tag with them, they do wat i do wat la, etc etc.. basically is about the same as how she quarrels with me last year (December). Why? I always hope that for this year, my life can be happy always without this kind of problem.. but look, it comes again.. I dunno whether she's going to make me spoil my mood for exam or what lo.. Tomorrow is already mother's day le and i also dunno i really wish to celebrate or just "celebrate den celebrate lo.. no big deal".. Haiz.. Now i'm already 17 years old, sec 5 liao and yet she still control me strictly, i can say.. Why? Go out at nite for study everyday she dun allow, always ask mi to stay at home study alone. I ever wish to hold an ATM card of my own account also cannot, see most of my friends all can take i can't take.. sad.. even from my friend's one look, they will say that my mother looks strict, and YES, she is strict.. She always say "I already gve you a lot of freedon liao", but did she give me the freedom that i want/wish t0? At this age she still wants me to get my teacher's hp no. for her.. okie.. fine, i will give her, but b4 doing so, i will tell the teacher my problems, and will ask her to stand by my side and help me.. Sometimes i ever think what will happen to me when i go to poly/JC/ITE.. Will they still treat me so strictly, or they will let go completely, i.e, to have almost 100% freedom? Haiz.. Will she allow me to go out at nite till midnite? Haiz.. And as what my MSN nite says about " 咳。。有时候，我在想，我现在拥有这种妈妈是不是上天想惩罚我而献给我的。。如果我有一个妈妈又疼又了解儿子的心里在想些什么，而不要使儿子更加心痛，难过，伤心，那就好。。但我呢，就完全相反。。Haz.. :(" Izzit really that the God want to punish me and that's why giving me such a mother? or what? Haiz.. The rest of the sentence ask a chinese person to translate as i dun have the mood to explain any further.. and also "一般人说"世界上只有妈妈好”，但我就只能说“世界上只有别人的妈妈好”。。咳。。有些时候，看到朋友的妈妈对儿子那么好，我的心里就觉得很难过。。就一直在想着。。" Haiz.. this sentence also ask a chinese person to translate.. Sometimes, i see parents(particularly mother) like Paul and Zhen Sheng's one, the way they treat their son, how caring they are, how humourous they can be, how friendly they can be, i really want to ... in my heart.. Why? In what way am i offending the God? How come i still need to accept this punishment for the whole of my childhood up to even now (sec 5)?? Have i done anything wrong actually? Haiz.. For days and nite i always keep on thinking.. I think this coming monday i really wish to see my form teacher Mrs Goh to help me le.. Dun say about my friends, if i've ever have a good family like Mrs Goh's one, that will be good le.. But now, ... .. haiz... Sometimes my friends say that "want to trouble the teachers again". But for this case, i'm really been forced to lo.. Fighting for freedom is really hard for me, from the experience i've with Miss Michelle Hsien last year, 12 to 17 December 2004.. These days i will be forever remaining in my hard.. In future, when i become a father, i really wish to share this bad experience with my children, and will not treat them they way my mother treats mi currently, and also to share this with my students, (if i ever be a teacher) maybe through chalet nite mi and my students will sit by the beach and share with them my bad childhood, and if my students ever have the same type of problem as me, i will be most willing to stand by my student's side and help them cos i dun wish them to be like what i'm now.. It makes mi heart pain that way.. Haiz..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 7:45 AM Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Ha|z.. FamILy PrObLeMs..
Haiz.. as what i stated in my nick, "人生的道路十分荆棘，没有人的生活道路是十全十美的，总会遇上某些问题和困难，不愉快的事情也发生在我们的身上。。" In English i dun really now how to translate, but it simply means not a good thing. For my case, it's family problem which i wish to talk to u all abt it here. Today in CME lesson, our teacher Mrs Goh asked us to do a CME task in group, and we are supposed to do something regarding to building a cohesive family. My group members all tell mi that i'm experienced in such things, so when Mrs Goh come to us, i will speak up all the problems, and she told mi that i should explain to her clearly what i want and to understand my parents , especially my mother, well? Den i asked back "den how about them? do they understand mi how i feel also?" den she say that "that's why communication comes in. Try not to raise your voice at them." den i replied "is they want to raise their voice first lo, not mi, and now i sec 5 le they still so strict to me." and so on.. ... .. Sometimes i just dun understand, why other parents treat their children well, like giving them more freedom den mi despite the fact that we are now sec 5 le. Even going out wif classmates/friends my mother oso want to complain and compare so much. My mother complain say that "Huh? At home cannot study alone mehz? Must go out and study together har?" and compare say that "Huh? U see your sister since pri sch till now got go out study one ar? She always can stay at home and study alone. U lehz? Only know how to go out and PLAY?" Haiz.. no matter how i try to talk back to my parents, it's still of no use. I was wondering if 'really must ask teachers to help mi talk to my mother about' den my parents 'happy' ar.. why my parents, especially my mother, are like tat one de? Aiya.. no mood to talk le la.. i oso wanna zzz le la.. tml still got oral exam for EL and Chem practical.. stress sia.. nitez..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:59 PM
Ha|z.. AbOuT mY NAPHA TeSt yEsTeRdAY.. Mon 11/4/05..
Haiz.. talking about my NAPHA test held yesterday 11/4/05, it's such a dispointment for mi. Over the past 4 years in Zhenghua Sec, I have not failed my NAPHA test until very "jia lak", at the most only Sit and Reach tat part fail. But for this year, i really wanna say "haiz.." man.. First time in the history i fail 3 stations out of 5; Standing Board Jump, Sit and Reach, and Pull-Up i failed. The worst of the worst ones are Pull-Up and Sit and Reach. For Pull-Up, haiz.. i can't even do 1 time. Last yr i can at least do a time or 2. I jumped and hold the bar and pull, teacher say not counted, tat part nvm. What is worst off is the Sit and Reach. I always keep on thinking that out of the whole class, i did the worst for this part. For this i can only managed to reach 19cm. 19cm is really to short le lo.. Now ppl hu are reading this, tell mi, am i really useless and weak as to the fact that i can't even do 1 time of pull-up.. Haiz.. i think it's time that i should go gym more often to train up my muccles and stamina le, and also to eat more meat, and drink more milk(prefer soya-bean milk) le.. Think that's all to talk about my physical weaknesses..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:17 PM Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Ha|z.. aLrEaDy 1 TeRm FinIsH Le aNd ThE WaY sHe TrEaTs mE, ... ... ...
Haiz.. already term 1 finish le and i still notice that she(those in my class one u shld noe hu) still treats me the way how she treated me for the past few months since the beginning of this year. I really don't know what exactly she has in her mind towards me, and how she feels i also don't know. Yesterday night, Hui Yee sms me and ask mi why i always look her(not hui yee ah) in a strange/wierd way. Actually I don't really like that lo.. What i think is that maybe some of my friends still saying about me and her, somemore say it when she's around, and that she may not feel good that way, and hence, the way she treats me now still doesn't improved, even by a bit also don't have. And i also noted 2 things, 1st is when i sms her and asked her something, she did replied me, but after a few sms that she sent me, she will end it with "Bye", and the 2nd thing is when i wave and say "bye bye" to her outside, she don't even bother to look at me, but when others say the same thing, she responded back. Until now i still don't really understand why she still treats me that way? This friendship between me and her is like there's no friendship like tat de.. haiz.. and i also very stupid cos i can't think of ways to make her feel happy and laugh, just like the rest of her friends, and even if i can think and do it, does she really feel happy about it? I doubt so.. Haiz.. i really hope that things can get better for me and for her as time goes by.. I'll observe it for the next 1 term or so and see how the situation goes..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 4:43 AM Saturday, March 12, 2005
Ha|z.. EnD oF TeRm 1 Le..
Haz.. Really long time never update my blog le. Term 1 is really gloing to be ending soon le.. Time really flies so fast sia.. For this entry, i wish to elaborate on certain things/matters/issues. These are: 1. My mood for the past few weeks/months. Sad --> Happy ;) 2. My studies. How bad did i really did for Term 1, and how slacking am i.. 3. Basketball. Did i improve? Or remains the same? 4. Complain letter to SMRT Buses and LTA (Land Transport Autorities) regarding the breakdown of Service 920. 5. Becoming even more interested/have the passion in buses thru SgBuses Forum and bus outing/spotting. 6. In schools. How's my life in school? How good? How bad? 7. My plans for this coming March so-called holidays and for term 2. 8. The most recent sports day event held yesterday, 11/03/2005 at CCK Stadium. I shall divide all these into 8 entries. 1 entry for each point that are mentioned above. And ya, btw, i think i'm only going to update my blog once per few weeks, months, or even up to 1 term cos i will not be taht free from Term 2 onwards ;) Meanwhile, go on reading my blog entries and wish all the O & N level ppl all the best for their coming exam and take care always wohz ;) Although it is going to be a stressful year for all of us, but at times we must also find time to relax ourselves rite? For mi, every friday/saturday afternoon i will go gym for my workout/exercise and saturday morning for basketball. ;)
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:59 PM
1. My mood for the past few weeks/months. Sad --> Happy ;)
I noticed that for the past few weeks/months after the later part of CNY, i started to become a more happy and cheerful person not like last time when i everytime very sad like that, this was ever since i'm becoming more siao about buses, that my sadness slowly goes off.. Now i'm as happy as any other normal people else. ;) And i hope to maintain my happiness as long as possible.. In class, i'm also happy happy like tat, llike to joke around and play with my classmates, probably those my few best buddies, like zhen sheng, zhi wei and steven. And some of my very good friends like lucas and wen xian, although i had something bad with him last year, but was slowly solved and now i treated him as 1 of my good friends. With regards to the matter about Xueli which makes me a bit sad in the past, i slowly also started to forget about it, but i do hope that she still regard me as a good friend, just like wat was it before, in sec 3, sec 4..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:58 PM
2. My studies. How bad did i really did for Term 1, and how slacking am i..
Well, i guess it was because of 'how slacking am i' that i get such kind of results for my studies for term 1. With the low marks that i get so far for my Combined Science, especially Chemistry, i will sure fail for my Combined Science, as for the rest, it is also nothing better off even for my POA. Though i still pass all my POA class tests for the past 1 term, but the results that i get is getting more and more poorer, not even a A1 standard just like last year where i could get an A1 for almost all my tests and exams. Chinese tests i also fail, and fail until really bad till F9 sia. Guess that it's partly due to my slackness that i have and also the mood which affects my studies. From the next term, term 2, onwards, i'm not going to be as slacking as before as O Level is really coming soon.. counting down for Chinese Papers is only merely about 10 weeks, and hope that i can get at least a B3 or A2 cos if get B4 or below, muz take retest somewhere around Oct/Nov. This is decided by the school one, not us, so we are not to be blamed for this decision unless we never studies for this Chinese O Level exam.
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:57 PM
3. Basketball. Did i improve? Or remains the same?
Well, as for my basketball skills, i do think that i have improved at least by a bit. FYI, currently, for every Saturday morning, unless i have to go places like the Kwan Im Temple at Bugis, i will sure turn up at the 6 head(blk 623 bball court) without fail to play bball and to also improving my skills, bit by bit. Sometimes i performed badly during matches, sometimes by miracle or dunno wat, i performed very well, and i do feel shocked about it. ;) Hmm.. I shall see how much have i improve by the end of this year. ;)
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:56 PM
4. Complain letter to SMRT Buses and LTA (Land Transport Autorities) regarding the breakdown of Service 920.
On 1 March 2005, at around 6+ in the evening, a Nissan UD(UDs) bus(TIB1250X) kena breakdown at the junction between Senja Link, Jelapang Rd, and Bt Panjang Ring Rd. I was at another bus behind that breakdown bus (TIB1249B) and i saw it with my own eyes. That's not the first time the UDs kena breakdown. I once also saw it with my own eyes at the junction between Pending Rd, Bt Panjang Ring Rd and Bt Panjang Rd ans that's the svc 921 bus having breakdown. (The rego i never go and see) The side EDS was stating 'OFF' at that time. After tolerate enough such breakdown of the UDs CAC(Converted Air-Con, from CSS) buses, i've decided to lodge a complant against both SMRT Buses Ltd and the LTA about it. Even the bus captain(BC), K.S Chew, the one which the bus i was riding on, also supported me as with regards to the complaining issue, cos he said that only commuters have the rights to complain, not the BCs. Until now, i'm still waiting for SMRT Buses to reply me with a proper reason and answer. I shall wait and see how for the next few days. If you really wish to see my complain letter, just message me in MSN and i will send u the file.
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:55 PM
5. Becoming even more interested/have the passion in buses thru SgBuses Forum and bus outing/spotting.
Well, ever since i knew about this SgBuses Forum website, i started to become more and more interested in buses and i shall have the passion for buses. The 1st person i have ever knew through both MSN and bus outing/rides is Rachel Lim. Guess wat? She is the 1 and only female member in the SgBuses Forum, and she did once told me that she hopes more people will appreciate buses. It was she that helps me to get though the SgBuses Forum and be vadlidated as a member cos it is not that easy to be part of the member in this 'restricted' forum. The first outing that i have with Rachel was on 27th Feburary 2005 where Service 975 debuted at Bt Panjang(BPJ) Interchange, and coincidently, at that day, i also get to know Jack, also from SgBuses Forum, face-to-face, and i hope from tomorrow's afternoon bus outing/rides with Rachel again, i can get to know more bus fans around, by coincidence ba, i supposed.. ;)
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:54 PM
6. In schools. How's my life in school? How good? How bad?
Well, as for that, Hmm.. My life in school, or should i called it 'school life', is good for the past few weeks/months. I enjoy being with my classmates and especially my those few buddies who happened to be also in the same class as mine, 1 is from sec 1 and the other one is from sec 2.Sometimes in school also sianz. Assembly is one of them. Every assembly will be a sianz one for all of us, the assembly programme all so sianz one de.. Like want to sleep like that. Another one will be chinese remedial on every friday, somemore after the assembly which ends at around 12:30pm. Every chinese remedial we have to stay back and do dunno wat exercise before we can go off. For us(5N3 CL class), usually we ends the latest cos of Miss Soh lo.. Then after that still got NPCC somemore. Guess wat? Mr Dennis Ong, OC For ZSS NPCC, wants us(Sec 5 NPCC ppl) to come back just to do sports like bball, etc. Haiyo.. like that waste our time, somemore must wear P.T Kit.. Sianz.. I rather spend this time in the CCK Gym somewhere in CCK Sports Complex. Air Con and relaxing somemore. ;)
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:53 PM
7. My plans for this coming March so-called holidays and for term 2.
Eh, as for my plans for this coming holiday, of course i plan to study and revise my work, and also must attend all the remedials and the chinese writing course (Liang Wen Fu that one) which are all arranged for us by our teachers. Hmm.. Not forgetting sports too wohz ;) Every Saturday morning for bball, and Every Friday/Saturday afternoon for exercise/workout @ CCK Gym. As For term 2, i'm not going to be as slacking as wat i was in term 1. Same thing, Monday to Thursday and Sunday i study, do homework, revise for O level; Friday and Saturday is my so called 'sports and relaxing day'. ;)
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:52 PM
8. The most recent sports day event held yesterday, 11/03/2005 at CCK Stadium.
Haiyo.. That was very sianz man although this was our last year having sports day cos we sec 5 le.. Sports Day.. @ CCK Stadium. Zhi Wei, Zhen Sheng and myself met @ Greenridge de Kopitam at around early 7+ tp have our breakfast, for mi, i only ate 2 eggs as i had already have my breakfast before i came out from home le.. Then after that we stand at Bt Panjang Ring Rd waiting for taxi at around 7:30am. By 7:40am muz reach CCK Stadium, but we onli reach there close to about 8am.. Haha.. we are late man! Zhi Wei and I ever first time late for something juz because of Zhen Sheng.. Lolx.. :p At around 9+ onwards, it was hell hot for us as the sun was shining directly towards the spectator sitting area. Haiz.. our school most famous Lim Yu Sheng never came for this sports day sia, in fact, for every sports day, he don't come one de.. Evil RuLz! Wahaha! After sports day, mi, together with Wen Xian, Lucas and Thiam Hee went to the gym @ CCK Sports Complex for some relaxing exercise. As this was my first time going to the gym, Wen Xian would be down there to guide mi along as he has went there for dunno how many times liao.. After that we went for a long bath and went to the 24hrs kopitam near the CCK Interchange. At first after our lunch mi and Rachel going for bus outing/rides, but she got something else on for her NKF Flag Day, so we make it tomorrow afternoon which is a Sunday afternoon ba.
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:51 PM Sunday, February 13, 2005
Ha|z.. Wan to cry liao..
Haiz.. juz tok abt new year i alreadi feel like crying.. Sobx.. Haiz.. I still dun understand why my parents, particulally my mother, is still like tat.. Now is stil cny day 5 and my mother dun let mi go my friends' hse.. I dun understand why if yesterday nite i was allowed to go to Bee San's house for BBQ, why today i wasn't allowed to go to Zhen Sheng's house?? To be frank, actually my dad allowed mi to go one, but my mother la!! keep on telling my dad tat he like tat will cause me to become worst.. If later my mother they all wants to go to watever ppl's house, i sure won't go one.. Very simple reason!, if my mother dun allow mi to go to Zhen Sheng's house, why should i follow them to their watever house?!? And even if i really lan lan follow them, i also won't feel happy abt it, and this only cause my mood to swing once again! So far actually on CNY i haven mood swing before, and this will be my very first and hope also the last time i actually become like tat.. My main purpose is actually NOT to go to my friends' house and take ang bao, but is actually to have fun, to enjoy myself there, juz like yesterday nite at Bee San's house.. My mother keep on saying tat i dun feel any stress for O Level this year, say i everytime slack one, and hence dun allow mi to go to Zhen Sheng's house and instead ask mi to go do my homework!! Where in the hell i got the mood to do my homework or do any shit study or revision when my mother actually dun allow mi to go to his house?!? Haiz.. last yr's christmas eve nite like tat, now CNY oso wan to like tat.. Really dun understand y.. It seems tat calling Miss Michelle Hsien down to tok to my parents, particulally my mother, is NOT enough.. In the end, although the situation has improved juz a little bit, but overall it was still somehow juz like before.. I really dun wish to go and trouble another teacher(particulally either Mdm Chong or Mrs Goh, my form & co-form teacher this yr) juz like Miss Hsien last yr.. Haiz.. I was thinking whether is this really my FATE to be like tat or wad lo.. Haiz.. really feel like crying rite now but juz because i'm a guy and not a gal, i should try to control my feelings by trying not to cry out with tears.. Meybe if i juz write inside my online blog, my feelings will be at least better a bit, but i dun think i still have the mood to go and do my homework, even as to copy the TYS answers(chemistry).. Haiz.. dun feeling like saying anything else rite now, cos i dun really noe wat else can i actually say abt this.. Wat i can only say this phrase rite now is "History Always Repeats Itself"...
++ quoth Victor Lim at 2:58 PM Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Ha|zZzZzzZz.. sAdDeD..
These few days my mood is not so good actually.. i dun wish to be like tat, but i have to be in this way.. there are a few reasons why i feel very sad..
1. I extremely hate ppl hu got see mi but never say hi one de.. At first i thought gabriel and tat group are all like tat one de, but when i asked him in msn abt this, he said that they all all never saw mi.. maybe they dunno i'm always with zw they all most of the time.. that one i at least can understand and forgive them in my heart.. 2. I personally feel that i'm actually a failure indeed.. for some reasons i think that way: a) I'm feel that i'm a very quiet person and not sociable and interactable like them.. everytime in class so quiet one, feel a sense of loneliness in myself.. In front of boon hoe they all i also onli say hi to them and nothing else for most of the time.. among them i only know boon hoe for the most number of years since the days where the both of us did the main gate duty.. that was 2 to 3 years ago ba.. at least for him i still got chat or talk with him sometimes, be it face-to-face or msn.. But the rest.. haix.. those in prefects (whether still inside there or quit alreadi) one.. haiz.. amos, kelvin, cun ping, jasmen and william.. and cheng long also.. know him thru my mother's friend hu was working together wif her last time since when we were in Pri 6/Sec 1.. All of them also play bball one de.. usually saw them at 6 head.. haizZzzZzzZ.. maybe i should try to interact with them more.. But how????? b) During conference call, the one who speaks the least one is also me.. always hear zs, jl, xl toking abt other things which i dunno wat to speak wif.. failure.. i dun understand why ppl say that i'm not actually very quiet when i personally feel that way... haiZzZzZzzZzz.. Maybe the period that i interacted wif them is not very long, that's why it's like tat.. Maybe i dun have the talent (天分) to tok a lot, especially during conferencing.. so wat if i can endure the longest till around 3+ to 4am?? c) HaiZzZzZz.. such a failure.. kena rejected by her*.. SaDdEd.. Den her attitude sometimes also ... ... ... HaiZzZzzZz.. dun wan to say liao la.. what for toking to me so fiercely during EL class??? Nvm.. den also dunno how to make her laugh and happy.. what a failure for me.. HaiZzZzzZz... If with my lousy character now, sure extremely damn hard for her to accept one.. At first is this week wanna go cut my hair one.. but ken say he onli go and cut his hair next friday, so i next week den go cut lo.. anyway i oso dunno where exactly the place is, the place tat zw recommend mi to go one.. he say that i muz have my own decision, decide for myself what to do instead of always follow ppl one de.. But now i dun feel tat way.. cos i always feel tat everything also my mother make the decision one.. she dun allow mi to have a chance to prove myself, dun allow mi to make my own decisions.. but this time i had enough of her liao.. wat i plan to do next friday is to first reach there and cut hair first, den after tat tell my mother abt it.. If she wan to scold mi for watever reasons, let her be ba.. anyway, what's done cannot be undone, rite? cut alreadi den wat she still expect me to do?? okie.. gotta stop writing for now le.. got time den i write again.. now is almost 5:30am and i wan to go and take a bath before having my breakfast and go to school.. today i am going to sch alone with no one else.. Dun feel like meeting ppl and go sch together for today especially thiam hee where every morning always call mi and ask mi to meet him one.. what i plan to do is to ask my mother to buy the bus concession for mi so tat i can take bus everyday to sch and avoid meeting wif him.. and tat's y when he always meet me at 7:15am outside Pending LRT station, i will always reach there either exactly 7:15am or later den tat.. haiz.. really gotta stop here for now le.. bye..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 5:31 AM Tuesday, December 28, 2004
24/12/2004 ~ 27/12/2004
24/12/2004:
-Afternoon go out with my family to Jurong Point(JP).. - Meet Sebastini over there also cos i promise to but her a present that she wants since she alreadi bought mine but forget to bring it to there.. it's actually christmas present.. - Den mi and Sebastini went to the Comics Connection and saw Darren Ho there.. - After buying the Slyvester cat that she wants, she went to NUTC at B1 while i go look for my sister they all at L2.. - After that go walk walk with them and went back to fajar at around 5+ ~ 6+ in the evening to have our dinner b4 we went back home.. - Reach home den use computer lo.. to d/l the video of "My Date With A Vampire III".. - Meanwhile i went for a bath and do my own things.. - The sad thing for mi for tat is on the nite of the christmas eve i was not allowed by my parents to go out with my friends, say dunno wat abt party all these craps.. to mi is all Jie Kou (excuses).. sobx sobx.. - Zs the all say never go until places like orchard area, but my parents ... ... haiz.. dun wish to say abt them anymore, wait later my mood swing again.. i wish to go lehz, cos got all my best buddies and also got xueli, jia ling they all there, and also can enjoy with them.. in the end, ... ... - So i bo bian i use computer till very late in the nite, but at around 12+ in the midnite i alreadi K.O (very tired) and fall asleep till abt 5~6+ in the morning the next days.. - At first i alreadi tell zw tat after abt 12+ when they reach home den have conference call, but in the end, ... ... (see above this).. but i dunno whether did they really have conference call or not.. 25/12/2004: - Very sian at home onli use computer the whole day.. - So u will see mi during these few periods/days i were online for long hours, i.e, > 18 hrs, < 24 hrs (cos my mum tell mi to switch off the computer and let it rest, if not, i can on the computer for 1 ~ 2 Days instead..) 26/12/2004: - Morning very sianz.. - In the afternoon, soon teck ask mi whether i could accompany him to play bball.. so in the end i go play with him at blk 478 bball court.. he ask mi to teach him bball but i say i until now also need ppl to teach mi one, so i can't teach him but can just let him practice more lo.. haiz.. - At nite use computer and play PS2 till midnite.. Use computer more den PS2 do.. 27/12/2004: - Go school in the morning to see which class i go to next yr.. and also need to help some of my classmates and friends check.. dun wanna list out their names lahz, if list out u see alreadi may tio shiock lo.. ask mi personally if u wish to noe.. - Mi go 5n1 next year.. yeah! - But gonna miss Jian Long & Zension quite a lot cos they next year not 5N1 anymore, cos they kena posted to 5N2.. - A total of abt 8 ppl from 4N1 kena posted to 5N2 next yr and 4 guys from 4N2 go 5N1 next yr.. - Got alvinder, yi liang, jia keng (OMFG! won't let him bully mi anymore.. hehex!) & wen xian.. - Heard miss soh say that next yr Miss (or Mdm i dunno lahz) Linda Yeo S.K taking 5N1 for CL next year cos she(Miss Soh) never teach us next year anymore le.. - Miss Soh say she won't be so fierce and strict.. (1st pt i agree, 2nd one i totally disagree cos see below) - I tell my sister abt this and she juz wish mi merry christmas and happy new year(think of another point of view and u will get her meaning).. she say at the most she will give us 习字 (writing) and 抄写 (copying of) 三字经 (those 3 letter CL words one, etc.. die ar like tat!! Den her expectation also very high one, somemore is N1.. N1 lehz.. so she will expect a grade 'A' from everyone and 听写 (spelling) to get damn high marks, if not sure die one, will get hell nagging and scolding, and also punishment of 抄写 from her.. she very pro in giving ppl 抄写 de.. Next yr my CL sure will improve a lot cos we r under her.. Haiz.. but like tat gd for mi cos i can improve on tat.. :p - After checking the classes den mi and my sister go look for Miss Tan and do NPCC admin thing (UPOA) till 5+ in the evening.. - At nite my sister use computer for NPCC thing, so i never really use the computer.. - & btw, i change my e-mail to ralliart_lancer_evo_88@hotmail.com.. pls update your MSN Messenger contact list.. thanks! my existing icydeivlvic88@hotmail.com will NOT be using in MSN Messenger anymore w.e.f Sunday 9 Janurary 2005, but u can still send mi e-mail and use this e-mail address to add mi in friendster or hi 5.. 28/12/2004: (Today) - Later reach school at 10am to continue do NPCC things.. with Emily.. My sister never go cos she got CIP in the afternoon, i.e, go Bt Panjang Plaza Community Library and do CIP work cos they must fulfil over 60 or 80 hrs for their 2 years of JC (forget is 60 or 80 le..) - Now going to brush my teeth, wash my face and go for breakfast liao.. cya.. bb.. - And btw, i will not be using MSN Messenger(or in fact, computer) from 29/12/2004 to 1/1/2005 as i will be moving house from Fajar to Bangkit/Pending area le.. so for the whole of this week i won't be so free to play bball, go out with friends le.. somemore still got the UOPA(NPCC) thing need to finish by the end of this week, but however, I may sometimes use my hp to log in using E-Messenger on my WAP/GPRS, so during these periods, onli msg mi in MSN if really got urgent/important thing, and i will not reply u so fast cos i using my hp, not computer! Hence, or otherwise, pls msg/call my hp (97603281) if you got other things, i.e, tell mi things that r not important, chatting, or even too urgent that u wan a reply fast..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 8:14 AM Friday, December 24, 2004
2 dAyS bAcK aT cHaLeT & yEsTeRdAy aT ThE bBaLL CoUrT @ CcKcC.. (22/12 & 23/12)
22/12/04:
- Go Weiyi's birthday party @ chalet, i.e, Costa Sands Resort @ Downtown East.. - Set off from BP with Ai Xia & Bee San.. den take LRT & MRT to Pasir Ris de White Sand Shopping Centre - At White Sands Shopping Centre these 2 gals wan mi to blanja(treat) them food.. den bo bian i blanja them some.. AT Old Chang Kee and the Sushi store inside FairPrice NTUC.. - After that go take bus svc 354 to the chalet.. den walk all the way to Block L.. right at the end of it.. - At night den BBQ food to eat and drink and talk cock lo.. - Den i oso went there to buy slippers of my size (12).. so expensive.. Greenridge sell onli $3.90 den over there sell $4.80.. - Started to go home from there @ about 11:10pm.. den Bee San's uncle drove the 3 of us home using his Mercedes Benz E Class (E _ _ _) Taxi.. - Reach home @ abt 12am.. 23/12/04: - Early in the morning zs call mi to ask mi to go play bball.. - Den at around 7:45am i set off from my house to Greenridge to meet up wif him, zw and yx.. - After that wait for the 3 of them to finish their breakfast b4 all of us set off to the bball court @ CCK CC.. - Reach there den start to play, i.e, having match.. - Haiz.. my skills ar.. dun wan to say liao.. Nvm.. Novice players are like tat one.. Muz take years to train up enough for me to become a better player.. - Gain more bball experience (when having bball matches) - See off from there at about 12 plus in the noon to have our lunch at the nearby coffee shop.. - All of us all order food but in the end never finish cos appetite not tat gd (for mi maybe i drink too much water liao, den makes my stomach very full).. - After that den take LRT from Keat Hong back home.. - Afternoon and nite i use computer to d/l video.. (MyDate With A Vampire Part III) - Den i will leave this computer on till this morning when i finish the downloads, den i will shut down the computer to let it rest.. - Den i also wan to go and zzz liao.. later my parents come out from their room again den i die liao... wahaha.. i really go zzz liao.. so nitez nitez.. P.S: I tio kena leg cramp (right leg) when i was sitting on the floor, dunno y become like tat.. 1st time lehz.. den i have to squat down instead of sit down/stand up as what zw advice mi to so as to circulate my blood (i supposed the reason is like tat bahz..)
++ quoth Victor Lim at 2:42 AM Tuesday, December 21, 2004
LoNg tImE nO bLoG Le..
Haz.. it's been close to a week since i last blogged my entry at 15/12/2004.. now going to tell u abt last few days and now.. this entry may be a long one cos i will never know how much i've written..
17/12/2004: - My big major problem has settle and now i'm gald tat i can be together with zs and company again.. All thanks to Miss Hsien who help mi to explain to my mum and try to compromise some agreements.. All already done liao... - Next is the release of N level results.. Best 3 subjects = 5 pts, total 6 subjects = 16 pts. My whole class promoted to Sec 5 next yr.. yeah.. and top malay student in whole corhot of S'pore is Rafizah.. yeah.. she's done our school proud.. - Last is the pasa malam @ along fajar road.. tat side so sianz de.. got nothing much to see.. but got saw b teok, jeramiah.. oso saw bee san, winifred, xavier and lucas and the 5 of us all sit down at the bus stop opposite fajar shopping centre and tok cock (chit chat) for a while and den i go home with lucas.. 19/12/04: - go pasa malam with weiyi @ bangkit.. saw wee lee tat group of ppl there.. nth to talk much abt this pasa malam.. all so sianz de.. - den conference call with zs, zw at around 11 something on 18/12/04.. den later conference again.. this time around 12~1am in the midnite on 19/12/04.. chat till abt 3~4am in the morning.. 22/12/04: - go back to school to submit the promotion to sec 5 tat form thing and oos to do npcc things, the Unit Overall Proficency Award (UOPA) thing.. den at night go west mall alone to buy weiyi's birthday present for tml.. his birthday on 23/12/2004 ma, but den i go to his chalet tml nite for his celebration, not stay overnight ar.. some ppl may ask mi wat is the "..." on my msn nick.. okie.. now i tell u all here.. although the big problem for the past few days b4 the release of n level results is already settled, but i just feel that sometimes the friendship between mi, zs and zw is not tat close as wat i had thought.. maybe i never spend more time together with them? or wat? i also dun really noe.. but i will try my very best to be together with them more often.. starting from next yr when the 3 of us, mi, zs and zw are all going to be in the same class.. haiz.. toking abt the stead thing, hmm.. i'm still not ready to go for it, and what kind of guy does she like, jia ling already tell mi over the phone le, but i'm afraid that i can't really change my character juz b'cos of her.. how am i going to change from a quiet guy who doesn't really tok much, to a guy tat is crappy, love to tok much.. and others more.. jia ling & zs, u should noe hu i'm refering to bahz..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 11:59 PM Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Ha|z.. HuRtS m| A LoT.. sAd + HeArT BrEaK..
These few days bad things keep on happening on me, happen until i can't accept the facts that my mum had said to me.. My heart breaks day by day, till yesterday then i become ok(appearance only) a little, unlike other days where my appearance seems to be very moody.. thanks to all my friends & teachers who are willing to lend me a listening ear and some who give comments which at least make my mood better by a bit.. This is a very long and horrible story for me, so i'll rather just say it here then tell u all 1 by 1 about it.. 这件事情说来话长..
It all started after me going to Queensway Shopping Centre with 3 of my buddies [zhen sheng (Zs), zhi wei (Zw) and yan xiang (Yx)] together with my parents that kept on insisting to go with me when i don't wish them to be with me.. (refer to the earlier part of the entries for the qneensway thing) Then it was the midnight thing.. (refer to the previous entry for more info regarding this thing.. Let me ask u all a question. What's wrong with going out with a friend in the middle of the night to Greenridge to buy something in 7-11 and den later going to a quiet void deck nearby and sit down and voice out my problems (心事)? My parents keep on saying that that's wrong for me to do that. According to them, there are a few reasons behind it which i agree BUT still they should allow me to go out and do the things that i did: 1. Safety: Those theft cases or whatsoever are happening in the midnite, say very dangerous for me to go out. I say that i'm not going out alone. but ... ... ... 2. Parents' way of teaching the child.. Bo bian this one no matter how i tried to talk (back) to them, still no use.. 3. Personal problems: They say that any personal problems (心事) can just speak to them, no need to keep all these things in my heart or tell this to another person. Comment on the italic words: What's wrong telling this to another person (what i mean now is my friends, somemore is my best few buddies) ? My parents don't even understand how i feel when it comes to this.. This kind of thing who i want to share with is my business, not my parents' business. They don't need to bother me about this. Next is the one which my parents misunderstood me for. Currently is Zs who give me advices/comments on how i should change myself for the better. My parents keep on saying that i everything ALL follow my friends one, don't even have my own decision. Actually they all are WRONG!! What i personally think is whatever thing Zs said to me makes sense to me and i also personally think that his advices to me are all correct. That's why i follow his advice.. I have the decision to do this do that.. But no matter how i tried to explain to my parents, i failed.. And my parents keep on accusing that Zs all teach me bad things which I TOTALLY DON'T AGREE AT ALL!! What i think is right for me to do, i will of course do it, if not, i won't do it at all.. My parents still don't understand this.. Then it's about the staying overnight at my friend's house (in this case is Zw's hse) and watch a soccer match. What's wrong with that again?!? I don't think it's wrong for me to do that, but my parents still got reasons (道理) which i although agree with her BUT i got things to say her back.. (in the end, i still failed to talk to my parents over this) : 1. Cause disturbance to their parents, brothers/sisters: I said that if Zw's parents don't allow his friends to go to his house for this kind of thing, Zw himself won't probably allow them to come to his house.. 2. Spare a thought for their parents' feeling: This one i already ask him about this, he also agree to what i say in the first/previous points mentioned above.. But no matter how i tried to talk to them, it still failed in the end, and they say that they don't ever allow their(my parents) son/daughter to go out in the middle of the night for ANYTHING, even though i make use of the chalet which i tell them that i went out for cycling with lucas all the way to Pasir Ris bus interchange and MRT station.. 3. My own interest: My parents keep on asking me why all a sudden i got such interest for soccer. I said that i start to have this interest b'cos i personally feel that there's a need for me to learn all these things.. What Zs said to me is totally right for me. He said that this is what generation now, more people are talking about soccer and i shouldn't just rely on basketball alone as my sole sports interest, and me personally feel that i shouldn't be the one who's left out.. BUT my parents still keep on accusing me that all these thing are still through friends one. What's wrong with that?!? HaIz.. Next, it's the very recently thing that happened on last monday (13/12/2004).. What's wrong with their (Zs, Zw, Yx, qing long) appearance? I don't think they look like those bad guys, BUT my mother.. ... ... And then my mum keep on asking me to come and see her after taking my pay and during when i answered to queries that my 4 friends do not know cos this is their first time filling up the form. What's wrong with that again?!? Just only helping/assisting them with this only and my mum keep on accusing me again. This time is why they don't ask the agents there. I said that is b'cos some questions in the form that agents just unable to answer the questions so i answered them, like that only cannot mehz?!? In the end, i just got scolded off by her and asked me to break off friendship ties with them WHICH IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO DO THAT!! 这种事情我是死都决定办不到的！ and even tell my teacher that I and Zs cannot be in the same clas next year. She's really unreasonable!! 太过分了！ After hearing such kind of things, i started to cry (don't say i cry baby ar.. this kind of thing is called emotionally hurt my feelings) while walking to IMM.. I don't mind being scolded in front of the public, but such kind of words really hurt my feeling a lot, and i even went to the gents at IMM and lock inside a cubical for about 5 mins b4 i cool down my mood(by little).. And then keep on thinking back on how should i settle this kind of serious problem. In the end, as my parents request, I shall call my teacher(miss hsien, my form teacher) and my mum answered the phone.. after that, my turn to talk to miss hsien, and i requested/pleased her, together with Zs, to help me solve this big and serious problem which will hurt my feelings forever in my whole life if not solved, so she requested for mi and Zs to come first and look for her, tell her the whole story, and then after telling us what she wishes to say, then my mum will be called down so that miss hsien can explain/talk to her everything about it and hopefully, my mum can be more understanding towards me.. This is what generation liao? Why my feeling is like my mum don't allow me to change myself ALTOGETHER, where i think i should change myself altogether ne? I really don't understand why is this so, as now is still my growing / maturing stage. Can anyone tell me why is this so? HaIz.. 人人都说要我为我的父母想一想他们的感受是怎样的， 可是他们有没有想一想我的感受又是怎样的？ 算了。。 Wait till this friday to solve this problem altogether and settle it ONCE AND FOR ALL and nothing will happen to both me and Zs and we can be remained as friends.. My dear best buddy, i really don't wish to lose such a good friend like you, who can understand my problems and help me to guide me, teach me along throughout my journey of life.. This is a gift to me from god/heaven which i must really treasure it a lot a lot a lot, no matter what happen to you and me, we are still friends, and we should help each other for problems that we encountered.. sometimes it's just better for me to share my problems with my friends rather than my parents as my parents may not understand my feeling very well, unlike my friends, especially my best few buddies.. Till then, i should stop here for now le, and wait for this friday to come, to quickly settle this problem fast as i don't wish to delay this anymore further.. Currently, right at this moment, till this friday, my parents don't allow me to go out with them to anywhere, even to play basketball(bball).. Life is so boring when i feel that i'm very lonely at home, only keep on using the computer the whole day, day and night.. u may notice that i was online from night of 13/12/2004 to next day morning. That was because my mum confiscated my handphone and disallowed me to contact with them when i went to sleep, and my nick for that day was stated very clearly that anything to say just say in MSN, don't call or sms me, especially my handphone cos they will check who is calling or sms me, and will keep on asking me what i was sms or talk about.. this is restriction to me!! And use the computer for a long time i also very sick and tired of myself le, especially my precious eyes where i keep on looking at the computer screen for long hours wthout break.. and the poor computer which has to be switched on for damn long hours just b'cos of me.. If this goes on and on, life will be totally meaningless for me.. 2 days before when i was crying i thought of whether should i die early and fast so that i don't need to suffer in this world anymore, but i believe miracle will happen, and it will be in 2 days time when we go back to school to get back our N level results.. It's not actually the results that makes me happy but the serious problem that's unsolved.. Even if my N level results is very bad, it's not so bad as compared to that problem.. HaIz.. really stop here for now le.. this friday or saturday then i will update again, and hopefully it will be a good one..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 6:26 AM Saturday, December 11, 2004
First Time Going Out In The Middle Of The Night.. Have A Good Talk Regarding Both Me and Z.S's Problems
HmMm.. Just now having a good talk regarding both me and Z.S's problems(mine more).. This is the 1st time in my whole entire life going out with a friend in the middle of the night, and somemore, he's one of my best buddies.. He ask me in MSN to "pei" him to Greenridge Shopping Centre to buy food/drinks at around 1:15am and eventually i managed to go out secretly w/o letting them knowing that i'm going out, and from buying food/drinks became sitting down under nearby void deck of the block and have a good talk over our own problems (心事)..
First, talk about my problems.. This is something related to the Queensway thing.. After having a good talk over this, i gonna solve the following problems with my parents: 1. Going to his house for overnight 2. Work 3. Going out 4. Trust & Faith in me 5. And other problems which concerns b/w me and my parents (especially my mum) and i also gonna try to solve the problems by myself: 1. Not being flexible 2. Stamina 3. Bullied by other people 4. Decision making (to have a decision by myself) 5. And other things which concerns b/w me and my character This coming tonight i'm gonna sit down with both my mum and my dad with my brother and sister already sleeping and have a good talk regarding problems b/w me and them, and i hope that i can solve all these problems successfully & peacefully as my mum's currently having sore throat and i dun wish to end up having quarrels/unhappiness among themselves and of course, me.. Second, regarding his problems, i shall not say it right here cos of privacy.. i can just possibly say out everything as he may not like me to do that here.. If it were the other way round, i also feel that way too.. But anyway, just now we really had a good talk outside and i next year (2005) will be a fresh start for me.. I will try my very best to change myself for the better, and i will not let him down de.. Z.S, 为了你，为了我自己人生的一切，我一定会改变自己的。明年将是我的全新开始，明年的我，将会跟以前的我不一样的。。 I will see how the day goes for this coming tonight..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 4:05 AM
Think It's Time For Me To Do A Self Reflection & Change Into A Better Person
Seriously, i feel that i have changed myself quite a lot this year, especially after getting to know zs and zw more better & to be with them most of the time (towards end of 2004).. I get to learn lots of new things through this bunch of best buddies that i have not learned throughout my teenage/secondary school years.. They are the ones who are able to make me change to a more better & mature teenager.. But 1 thing i regret is, to not knowing them eariler(2001~2003, Sec 1 ~ Sec 3) , but now that i started to know/understand them more better doesn't mean that it's too late for mi, I still have a lot of time to be with them often, even till old age also can.. N level result is coming very soon, and i do hope that we all can go up to sec 5 together, to study, play, to do things together, and i do believe that "true friendship will never always ends.."
For the past 3~4 years i always feel that i'm not a good person with good characters.. Regarding my parents (especially my mum), i always make them worry about mi & not trusting me too much, even up to now.. The recently queensway thing is one very good example.. Although I'm not as good as my sister, but I just have the feeling of my parents not trusting me to go out with my friends(zs, zw, yx) to queensway shopping centre to buy some sports stuff.. cos 1. they just pian pian (insist of) want to pei (accompany) me over there even though i keep on saying dun need.. 2. they seem not to trust me saying that my friends already gone there for at least a few times & going to the same few shops to buy sports stuffs (bball shorts, shoes, etc..) & keep on asking me to go to all the shops and compare the prices & worst of all, calling me to ask me which shop was i in at that moment of time and come and find mi when my friends were around.. 3. first thing a few days b4 going to queensway i already tell my parents that they dun need to accompany mi personally over there but in the end, ... ... (u all should know wat happened in the end) For this queensway thing, my mum even say that i dun have "parents' heart" (父母心), cos b4 going out of queensway, i called my dad and say that i will be going home with my friends but they just ask mi to go back and find them near the information counter.. the reason why i wan to do this is b'cos i really feel very "fan" (irritating, annoying) and dun wish to be with them at that point of time.. I think i just going to stop here for now..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 3:23 AM Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Ha|z.. nO mOoD LiaO La..
Although 2day i managed to buy my bball shoes and shorts, but the day did not went 100% smoothly for mi..
First, my pay.. knn.. i expected tat i will get at least $1000 but in the end only get around $220+... first thing i realised tat i've over-estimated my pay cos never deduct the CPF contribution.. tat one is my fault k? 2nd thing is the agent never received my 4th week of the month(Nov) so haven given mi my pay for tat week, they will put the money thru my bank after a few days and will inform mi once they did tat.. tat one is their fault k? Second is about the Queensway thing, first thing i tell my parents tat i go with my friends to Queensway Shopping Centre on our own they just pian pian wan to follow mi.. now they complain tat i dun have the "parents' heart".. haiz.. i just hate to go out with them when i go out with my friends.. 2day i go out wif yan xiang, zhen sheng & zhi wei, and they all think the same way as i do.. even the selling shoes ppl oso support by my side.. haiz.. parents are all like tat one.. they all just keep on nagging and say bad things abt mi when i'm over there.. at first my parents keep on asking mi to go there and see all the various shops and compare the price first, den i keep on telling tat my friends have went there for at least a few times le, but they just dun wan to accept wat have i just said.. i at down there alreadi very fed-up le they still wan to like tat.. den i wan to go home wif my friends also cannot.. must go back to the 1st floor near the information centre and find them.. but in the end when we walked all the way to the bus stop i still saw them over there also waiting for 961.. den after tat i follow my friends all the way to bukit panjang where my parents they all went back home first while i continue to be with my friends to plaza to eat and buy things.. den after tat went back home.. Haz.. dun wish to say anymore further liao.. they just dun understand how bad i feel right now.. what zhi wei say is very right for mi.. "going out with parents accompany means no freedom for mi".. this sentence i strongly agree to it.. okie.. i stop here le.. no mood liao la.. spoil my mood liao la..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 10:49 PM Tuesday, December 07, 2004
LoNg tImE nO bLoG Le..
Haiz.. long time no blog here liao.. these few days i keep on busying abt the sgforum (buses) and my other stuff.. so won't be free to come here and blog often.. yesterday juz spent the morning in 6 head and afternoon in zs's hse. den go home at around 5pm.. managed to learn a bit of new skills from zs, and tml i wil go practice again, together wif zs, yx, zw and mi.. dunno if steven is free to come down or not.. tml after morning go play bball den in evening i gonna go back to TIC Tech Centre to get my pay with zi kuan and jesslyn.. okie.. stop here for now le.. free time den write..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 4:50 AM Wednesday, December 01, 2004
Yesterday & Today..
Yesterday, 31/11:
Haiz.. never working liao.. now muz concentrate on my own things liao.. 2day managed to go play bball in the morning at around 8~9+ in the morning.. play till abt 12~1+ in the afternoon den go home.. the skills today for mi not really bad actually.. still can managed to run pass the opponent and catch the ball when the ball is passed onto another opponent.. Dun worry, i will start to improve my skills, bit by bit, day by day.. over there got mi, zs, say wee, wei wei, jian yong and the other guy i dunno his name.. hmm.. den oso managed to take a few photos of their good skills, like zs, say wee & wei wei.. say wee and wei wei all ask mi to take videos of them when they showed their skills since i've juz changed my hp to SE K700i, but too bad, the video not very clear, liek got a lot of square square thing when i moved my hp fast a bit.. den reach home alreadi as usual i would use the computer and do my own stuff + transfered files to and fro my hp and computer.. Today, 1/12: In the morning as usual i would use the computer.. den afternoon darren ho come to my house and use computer for his mp3 stuff and to surf the internet.. at abt 5+ in the evening, mi, my bro, mum & dad all go to the 24hrs kopitam @ bangkit to have our dinner first b4 went to Jalan Besar to look around for shops tat sells various types of lights, but onli a few of them opened, so after tat, we walk all the way to serangoon road to take svc 131 to balestier road to comtinue see for lights.. den reach tehre alreadi juz cross the road and went into a shop tat sells various types of lights and lamps.. den after tat see alreadi the staff there managed to convience my parents to buy cos anyway we are moving house soon, to pending area, so muz buy here buy there.. finishing tat alreadi den take a cab/taxi back home.. during this time, my sis went go for the this year's zss prom nite at Concord Hotel, quite far actually.. until now she still haven reach home, cos the prom nite is till 11+ in the late nite.. okie.. i will stop here for 2day le.. got free time i will write again de..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 10:36 PM
Photos of the Journey on Svc 176 to my workplace @ along West Coast Highway
Onli managed to captured 4 of them as 176 was packed wif at least 75% full wif ppl at tat time..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 10:45 AM .jpg) Ending Jurong Town Hall Road soon, reaching West Coast Road
++ quoth Victor Lim at 10:39 AM .1.jpg) Ending Bukit Batok, Reaching Jurong East
++ quoth Victor Lim at 10:37 AM .jpg) Going towards the end of Upper Bukit Timah Road, turning right to Hillview Road soon..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 10:09 AM .jpg) Bukit Panjang Road
++ quoth Victor Lim at 9:46 AM
Ha|z.. mY woRk|Ng dAyS R nOw oVeR Le..
29/11/04: (Mon)
Haz.. last day of my work liao.. although feeling happy tat i dun need to work from Dec onwards, i do oso feel like "she bu de" leave them lehz.. this 1 month overall they really treat mi well.. working wif them is a enjoyment to mi.. i will forever be remembering the good times tat we had for the past 1 month, especially the times where they help mi to buy 4D at outside after lunch & tat the first time i sat on a motorbike and den Ah Guang rides mi there. the feeling was so shocked when sitting on the motorbike, and many more.. I will oso remember how my supervisor (called Ah Tiong) treated mi badly wif attitude, and not forgetting another one hu worked wif mi for the first 2 weeks of the month before he quitted.. his name is Kevin Soh.. On the last day of my work, i managed to take a few photos of the ppl working wif mi in the same department as mi called Leap Frog.. (pls see below for photos) There are actually some more ppl tat i haven taken photo wif, but i will try my very best to take it on the day i come back and take my pay which is on 8/12/04, 5pm, and oso to see them for the last time before i really dun get the chance in future to see them face-to-face.. Honestly, i oso wish to work for 2 more weeks but i need the Dec holidays to do my other stuff like friendster & basketball & npcc admin stuff, and oso feel a little bit sad la.. The ppl there ask mi to work for a few more weeks but i have no other choice.. There is onli 1 month(which is Dec) left for mi to do my own things.. Haiz.. but i managed to ask some of them for their contact nos so tat we still can contact it thru hp, be it sms or calling.. the 7 ppl(actually oso students, all aged 18) from china oso going back to china 2 more weeks from now, on 17/12/04, and tat in Feb next year, the rest of them may not be in the same dept anymore, and the supervisor going to change to Jenny le.. Haiz.. <<--- EnD oF mY wOrKnG PeRoD --->> <<--- NoW LeFt OnLy 1 mOnTh BeFoRe sCh ReOpEnS In JaN 2005 --->> <<--- BeLow ArE ThE PhOtO mEmOrIeS TaT I mAnAgEd tO cApTuReD oN ThE LaSt DaY oF mY WoRk --->>
++ quoth Victor Lim at 9:35 AM .jpg) Yu Pei(my leader, ppl there called her pei jie), Mi & Pei Wen
++ quoth Victor Lim at 8:51 AM .jpg) Mi, Xiao Yu & the white jacket one i forgot her name liao.. Will update on 8/12/04 where i will go back and take my pay, and oso to take photo of those ppl hu i haven taken wif..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 8:48 AM .jpg) Mi & Amy
++ quoth Victor Lim at 8:45 AM .jpg) Mi & Wang Dong
++ quoth Victor Lim at 8:44 AM .jpg) Ah Guang & Mi
++ quoth Victor Lim at 8:43 AM .jpg) Mi & Jiang Yang
++ quoth Victor Lim at 8:43 AM .jpg) Ai Ni, Mi & Xue Ni
++ quoth Victor Lim at 8:42 AM .jpg) Apple, Mi & Amy
++ quoth Victor Lim at 8:41 AM  Mi & Wan Yin
++ quoth Victor Lim at 8:41 AM Monday, November 29, 2004
2 days nv blog le..
Hmm.. for around 2 days i nv posted anything here liao, tat's b'cos i was too lazy and tired to type..
27/11: (Sat) This day mostly onli do checking, nth really much actually.. work from 7:30am till 4pm den take bus go around.. first is 176 to Jurong East.. (go toilet nearby) den is 143 to Toa Payoh, but alight @ opp. Ngee Ann City(Orchard) cos i sit in the bus like very hungry like tat.. den go inside Ngee Ann City to find food to buy and eat.. finally saw some in Wisma Atria Basement floor(near Orchard MRT Stn) den go breadtalk buy 3 breads and eat den take 171 back to Bt Panjang Plaza den do find my parents there.. end of story.. 28/11: (Sun) As usual, mostly onli do checking.. go out and eat for lunch.. 2day had fish & chips & 2 cups of longan drink for lunch.. after tat walk back and con't do work.. work till 4pm i go off.. this is still not the last day of my work yet.. after work go WTC & walk walk.. den pass by a shop called Nikko and it sells various types of vehicle models.. wah.. down there all so expensive sia.. can onli see, not buy.. after tat go to a sports shop(forget which one le) and look look.. after tat go HarbourFront MRT and take NEL MRT to Kovan to find my parents they all there.. den in the end, when the train left Dhoby Ghaut MRT Stn, my dad called mi and say my mum very tired can't tahan, so i alight at the next station which is Little India and go take 980.. b4 tat, i went to the Gents at MRT station.. wah.. so many indian ppl i can't stand it.. quickly do my business and get out of this station.. go to the bus stop see 960 come alreadi dun wan to take, cos too many ppl le.. den later 851 come, oso dun wan to take cos tat one go yishun den 980 come and i boarded it cos it's bendy bus and i can sit finally.. den board till i can see the bus stop wif 171 den i alight, along sembawang road.. den go gents at nearby coffee shop first b4 cross the traffic light and wait for 171 to come.. come alreadi den i quicky take it back to Bukit Panjang.. den go gents again at plaza b4 i walk home.. end of story..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 4:58 AM Saturday, November 27, 2004
Friday, Nov 26 2003..
this morning go exchange batt wif zs, give my father my old hp and i go for work 2day w/o any hp.. den in bus 176 listening to my discman and sleep until reach the workplace oso dunno.. heng tat zi kuan touch my back once and wake mi up, den i quickly alight.. alight alreadi thought tat my hp is in the bus den i tell the bus driver tat i go inside check, but dun have.. den i realised tat my hp is actually not wif mi..
before around 3 something in the afternoon, my mood wasn't in a good status, esp after lunch, dunno y.. tat time was when i do the sorting (for cutting of the edges) tat part.. at around 3 something. 2 or 3 contractors or whoever la come here and do the wiring, so we muz pause for a while.. after tat, i go do the checking till 5pm den i leave liao.. during pausing, yu pei(actually she's onli the leader, not supervisor) and her staff all got tell mi abt how they overcome problems regarding with Ah Tiong(the devil supervisor).. after work, i take 176 back home immediately to see my new K700i hp.. in the bus, as i was sitting on the single sit in the front(TIB873C), i can listen to my discman until my discman dropped onto the floor. heng beside mi got no ppl.. okie.. i'll stop here le..
++ quoth Victor Lim at 5:00 AM Friday, November 26, 2004
Thursday, 25 Nov 2004 a FarK|nG DaY!
2day really a farking day fir mi..
morning and afternoom as usual la.. everything the same i dun need to repeat.. the onli thing i'm gonna say is abt our male supervisor called Ah Tiong.. 2day sianz ar, give mi attitude.. actually the thing goes this way: I ask the female supervisor whether got any OT for mi or not, she say if I want to work OT no problem, do until wat time also can. so i decide to do till 9pm.. Ah Tiong came at around 4+ in the afternoon.. but den tell mi tat I can go home alreadi cos he thinks tat there are too much people over there and tat say tat I NEVER DO ANYTHING THERE, say u work till 7pm alreadi enough le.. I did tell him tat i got at least do something, but he's juz being too stubborn.. oso got tell him tat the "do until wat time also can" is Yu Pei say one de, je juz won't listen! den i tell Ah Tiong tat i'm going to call Yu Pei(female one) and tell her about it first, but he keep on insist tat there's no necessary to call her.. he like tat keep on staring at mi so bo bian i have to leave.. the timesheet i tml den let Yu Pei sign.. Pui! hu wan to let him sign the timesheet le? mi alreadi very fed-up like hell le still wan him to sign?!? Wait long long ar! After I say "bye bye" to every staff in my dept & have my last staring to tat fucker Ah Tiong, I immediately take out my hp and call her, tell her everything about it.. reach bt panjang plaza go 7-eleven and buy the "bu shuang" drink and drink it while i walk back home.. okie.. gotta stop here for now le..
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